Dictionary.com defines fear:
A distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.
afraid - feeling fear; filled with apprehension: afraid to go.
Well, it happened again. The waves were lapping the shores of Ohio street beach this morning. I was hoping they would be there. I wanted another chance to face them. I got in the water and things started smoother than last week. Found a rhythm right away. Realized I was swimming on an angle and tried to straighten out. Made the mistake of stopping and seeing just how far off course I was and that's when I took in a big gulp of water. Started to gag and cough. Got freaked out. Made my way over to the buoys and once again, I stood there. I was afraid to go. Was able to swim around the buoys in the water that separate the swimmers going out and coming back 5 times. Stopping and starting the entire time.
Ok, mother nature, bring 'em on next week. The day is coming. I'm getting used to them. The day is coming when I'm not gonna freak out. And I'm gonna swim in rough water the same way I swim in smooth water.