I learned some things about myself with the thyroid experience but the biggest thing I learned is to live in the moment. (For anyone who followed my training for IMOO, I'm sure you're thinking, hey, I thought that was the life lesson you learned from that experience - well I guess I didn't.)
The past several months were filled with a mind that was skipping around as fast as my heart rate to right now I have a feeling of being very calm. I'm probably as closed to centered as I could feel. Mymind is racing all the time, just not scattered. So it was torture having it race as fast as my heart rate.
We live in a world of complete distraction. We put ourselves there with TV, iPods, computers (blogging & facebook), blackberries or cell phones. Add all the caffiene that's available to use for a small price of course. Add all the surgary goodness of the cakes and ice creams, and the candy that is put right at the checkout counter of the grocery store. Add how easy it is to stop by and pick up dinner because you've been distracted by everything else mentioned above to make dinner. My mind was lost on so many levels.
I would go to bed at night sometimes and wonder why I didn't finish the laundry or get the car cleaned out or why was I snapping at Scott, Gracie or Zak. It's because of the distractions I created with the stuff above.
I know I want to be a better mom, wife, person. I know I want to be a better cyclist, runner swimmer. I want to be a true friend.
I got a wake up call. Sometimes words are tough to live by but I need to start living in the moment again and turn off the distractions.
I rode in the moment yesterday. I kept up with the big kids for a while. It felt so good. When I fell back I was ok with it. It just felt good being there. That's what I missed and I got the feeling back yesterday. I want to go into to detail about the perfect weather, no wind, hanging onto the draft but I won't. I'll just say the ride was sweet - as sweet as all the candy I used to eat. :)
Oh, one more thing, I'm still gonna blog. I like doing this but I'll only be coming by every once in a while. I have an entire summer to spend with my kids. We're going to the park now. Have you tried the monkey bars lately? Now there's something that could distract your mind for a while. Holy crap they're not easy anymore. When did that happen - when did they get so hard to get across? :)