Friday, May 16, 2008

Mid-Life Crisis? Culture Shock? Identity Crisis? All of the Above?

Ok, I never understood the Mid-Life crisis thing. The way it works, you hit your 40's and suddenly start to see the world differently. You can almost hear the clock ticking down so you go out and buy a sports car, change your appearance or have an affair. How can that happen? How can the world look different all of sudden.

Well, I'm starting to understand MLC. Not sure why, I'm starting to wonder if there is somekind of on/off switch or chemical that is released once the body reaches a certain day on the calendar.

I used to be mistaken for 17, for the longest time. Really, it was almost annoying but lately, hmmm. Well, I told you about the Sam's Club grandma thing and it hasn't stopped. My doc is asking about menopause, I'm getting weird illnesses like a fatty tumor and pains in my legs. Pre-school mom's are asking me about motherhood "over 40".

I've been away from my endurance workouts for 4 weeks now. I've run a little and swam a little but my desire to jump back into it isn't what I thought it would be. Sure, I talked to that mom at that birthday party a while back. She was so smug, I wanted to show how it's done. But, I'm gonna make a fool out of myself if I don't get rid of the excuses and get my butt in gear. I'm actually missing the Galena tri tomorrow. Part of me could careless and the other part is yelling what the hell is going on here?! I have a 1/2 Ironman in less than a month. I'm I trained for it. Nope. But, I'm gonna do it and this is what I'm hoping.... that it will be my spark. It will light the match that reignites that desire to get out there again.

I know that somehow, there is a way, to balance training, family and life. I know I can do it all. Why all of sudden, at 43, I'm believing in "Crisis" instead of "spirit". UGH!

1 comment:

IronGuinness said...

It's important to know that at the end of the day it's not the medals you remember. What you remember is the process-- what you learn about yourself by challenging yourself, the experiences you share with other people, the honesty the training demands -- those are things nobody can take away from you whether you finish twelfth or you're an Olympic Champion. Silken Laumann - Canadian Olympian who overcame injury to win a bronze and a silver medal in single sculls rowing in 1992 and 1996 respectively.